Things I Am Worried About Today, In No Particular Order

[gwenzilla]

• That strange noise from the bathroom was more than just the drying rack I tripped over falling forward.
  
• My cat hates me.
  
• People I like hate me.
  
• People I don't care for all that much hate me.
  
• Strangers take one look at me and hate me.
  
• By having all the colour cut out of my hair, I will get to experience the joys of being discriminated against both because I'm fat and because of my age, not just the first one.
  
• The grocery order won't arrive before I have to leave, and nobody will open the door, and there won't be any groceries.
  
• I might fall and hurt myself if I take a shower, but I have to take one before I go out. Maybe I will succumb and just not go out rather than risking it.
  
• There is a lot I have to do that I have not done. I don't know why I cannot make myself get to these things.
  
• There are people I need to have important conversations with. I don't know why I cannot make myself contact those people.
  
• I might be a bad sister because I haven't gotten in touch with my sister recently.
  
• I might be a bad Sister because I haven't gotten in touch with my Sisters recently.
  
• There won't be enough money for anything.
  
• I should change this user pic because I don't look like that any more.
  
• My pretty green shawl needs a mend, a wash, and a block, but I can't be bothered to do it.
  
• I actually don't even know where my blocking kit is. Maybe I will just get a new one.
  
• Can you really have enough knitting needles? Am I approaching that point?
  
• I'd really like a new 3mm needle for 2-at-a-time socks.
  
• And some new sock yarn too.
  
• I should bring That Project along to knitting today to see if BFF thinks I'll have enough to finish.
  
• Blech; I have to go to knitting and be graceful.
  
• I am not very graceful.
  
• Can't go if I don't at least wash my hair!
  
• Why not just skip it?
  
• I handle everything by skipping it.
  

(This has been a brief glimpse into how I think about everything.)

Comments

Unmotivated

[(Anonymous)]

I think it's a phase of the moon. I too have lots of stuff I *should* get done and no motivation at all to actually do any of it. I think in my case it's at least in part because no one else seems to care about it, at least not enough to participate, or even just not be snarky when I do get something done. What you are describing sounds like clinical depression. Make yourself get out some and if you still don't feel better contact your doctor or therapist. BTY I love you always, even when you don't feel loveable. And I have always thought you were beautiful, even when you couldn't see it. Ping me when you can talk. I miss you.

Re: Unmotivated

[the-gwenzilliad.livejournal.com]

Not sure who you are, but thanks. :-)